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Montag, November 15, 2004

i think i'm more glad than ever that my trip is cancelled, now. did some thinking and all.. when i sms'ed my mummy.. she just replied, 'it's ok, safety first.'.. i wondered if i had been too selfish just wanting to go despite the danger.. at the pt of time when they told us... i was peeved.. i wanted to go no matter wat... but when mummy replied.. 'hey, u have a family here.' went thru my mind.. like reminding me... and i mass messaged alot of closer frens from church, class and 'others'.. ;o) i was looking fer empathy.. haha... cos i had been anticipating for so long! i had some... and i also had some replies from 'older' frens[u noe who u are. thanks!], who weighed it out for me... saying things like, 'there'll be next time', 'safety more important.' 'sayang sayang', and many more.... and also my family.. messaged my mum and bro.. then bro also said next time.. told dad when he came back at night.. he was 'teasing' me.. 'oh, xiao ying bu ke yi qu le.' meaning i cannot go...haaha.. but i think deep down, he's relieved.. many a time, he very worried abt me going overseas.. when i was in australia, mum told me he kept asking why i did not contact them.. haha... i did i did! i messaged and called kays! haha... well.. apart from all that earthly beings... i have my supreme being! few days before the in-charged told us.. i heard, 'i do not want you to go to Laos.'.. i argued.. i reasoned.. i have been yearning to go since year 1 when i knew abt these community services trip.. and u told me i was going to Laos after my interview.. y this? i did not accept the talk at all.. but after knowing.. i was like.. ok, u win.. hahha... so just wanna thank God.. actually, i suddenly got a lot of time... and some things are sorted out.. i can go thru my water baptism next saturday.. b4 changes, i was to fly on the 19th[fridae], meaning i wld have to miss my baptism.. but now.. i can! hallelujah! with time on my hands.. read some books written by Christian authors.. which i have not been doing for ages.. read [common grounds] by Ben Young and Gleen Lucke.. and also [is men are like buses, then how do i catch one?] by Michelle McKinney Hammond.
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