ange|ina

Freitag, April 09, 2004

some thoughts about my attachment.. and mostly experiences as well..
~saw bed 14 waiting to be discharged... he was all grins... so cute! his parents were smiling too... heh... a great feeling!
~saw a child playing with my frens.. so excited! that's wat kids are suppose to be like! i long for my own. :p
~Poor child, disliked by student nurses, ward nurses, all staff.. he's in constant pain and always crying, and that irks everyone. it doesn't help that his parents are demanding. however, i saw him when pain was much reduced and he was in much joy! the scene was up-lifting.. i read also in papers tat pain is going to be the 5th vital sign to help manage a patient!
~Dear KM went for op, she ws elated abt the stickers i gave her and i was heartened by her reaction! she is so sweet despite her disease... she went to ICU and then high-D.. just came back to my ward todae.. and when i went to her.. she held my hands and said 'jie jie'.. i was touched! just a young girl of 4... so sweet! I love her!
~Baby came back from op.. his skull's not formed.. and my heart went out to him... he looks 'funny' that it's heart-wrenching and also he's used to carrying that it's impossible to put him down!
~observed baby bath.. understood how fragile a life is.. and the wonder of a life.. got questioned by other parents regarding my skill.. kinda pissed.. i've dealt with smaller babies before?
~darling's parents came during feeding time, am shocked that they refused to bottle-feed the child. why GOd why.. why do parents refuse their own babe, own love, own darling? isn't their newborn the greatest joy of their lives? darling cries alot but is an angel when asleep.. I love you!
~found out my 'shy' boy has got cancer. he's 2 and a half years old.

well.. these are just some... lots more to come.. heart wrenching as well as uplifting.. i choose to stick to my calling though how emotional.

12:15:00 AM`