ange|ina

Montag, Dezember 30, 2002

let's sum up wat happened todae... morning, woken up rudely by mum... door closed.. din bother abt her yells... muahaha... stayed in bed... read my book.... hi-fi on..... she unlocked my door.. wateva.... convertible called after lunch... met up with her.... went marche ..... came up with an invitation list fer my 18th birthdae... went around town.... shopped fer a pretzy... hee... quite pretty.... went to taka... she was tired.. rest at mos burger... realized with agony and anger that blue is ignoring my calls... |pissed mood| went through mood swings... went to lido... sians... queue so long.. went back to cine.. played a little arcade b4 movie[blue crush].... played against this person dunno who... me died pitifully.... went to watched... not much of story line... but there's eye candy.. hehz... after that... wanted to go convertible hse... couldn't get my parents.. went ahead.. was on the way.... in the bus, managed to get her at last.. cannot go.. took bus back... sigh... on the bus felt like shit.... dunno wat went through my heart and mind... just painful.. another friend messaged, wanted to go out tom... me can't.... dun understand y she dun understand.... might not sound as bad as some other pple's dae... but my life is not usually like dat.... used to liek blue.. guessed it's no point.... convertible may be right... blue's a jerk... gonna fer prayer meeting on 1st jan in the morning... not going to jb anymore... dunno wat the mind of my mum is thinking... 'angie, relax....' am i so detestable? feel fat todae.... okiez, i am fat... wat a statement... i feel fat everyday.. i am fat... so it justifies my feelings... guess i should go on a milk diet....... is it one or 2 dae(s) to new yr? it's 30(1) daes to my 18th... am looking forward to it... also not.... dunno how many pple will remember.... my heart and mind are so jumbled!!!! 'God, help me.......' i feel so unworthy of anyone..... i dun deserve to be in this world......... y am i here? always there fer pple when they need me... when i need sumone, i dun noe who to call... they are busy with their own things.. skool, work, bgr, etc....... okiez... dun wanna sound pathetic on my own blog... take care everyone... nitez and morning.. depending when u are reading this... advance happy new yr wishes...

11:46:00 PM`